Posted on Monday, 28th September 2009 by Catherine

This Mental Music Monday is dedicated to my mom. She lost her battle with breast cancer on September 30th 2004. The anniversary of her death and her birthday are both hard days for me.  She passed away just 2 days after my daughter Sydnie’s 1st birthday. She has never met my youngest child Cooper who is now 2.

Sometimes I wake up and think “I am never going to talk to her again?” how strange and so very sad.  My mom and I were very close – we had an amazing relationship.  I know that not everyone can say that about their mom. I realize how blessed I am to have had such an amazingly selfless mother to teach me the ways of the world.

One of her favorite songs was by John Denver – she was born and raised in West Virginia and this song was so special to her. If you have ever lost a loved one you realize how keeping their memory alive involves talking about things they liked, doing activities that remind you of them and also allowing yourself to be sad.

Music can play a healthy role in keeping people close to your heart.  Whenever we hear this song my kids will say “This was grandma Char’s favorite song” and we turn it up and sing to it and I remember her – for that 3 minutes I try and think about all the little things I can that bring me closer to her and her memory.

Losing her is by far the hardest thing I have been through and not a day goes by that I don’t miss her and think about her.  As I celebrate my daughters 5th birthday today I feel sad that my mom is not hear to see this beautiful little girl who looks so much like her.  I am doing my best to keep her memory alive and if I am half the mother to my kids that my mom was to me I have succeeded.

I have grown to LOVE this song…mom this one is for you~

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